Cancer of the Soul

Posted by Heather's Starting End on May 30, 2014
Posted in: creative writing, depression, life, poem, poetry. Tagged: , , , , , , , , , . 39 Comments

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I see me now,
And reflect on a time when
Once lost ,
Needing to be found again

I see those years,
Just a walk on part
On the stage
Of my life
In a house I occupied,
But where I did not
Live
In a bed I slept,
But did not
Dream

My echoing thoughts,
A confirmation
Of loneliness,
Filled with emptiness,
Although be it without solitude

The night could have been day,
The day could have been night
Irrelevant
For I mourned both,
But wished,
Both away
Dark sadness

Medicine,
A mere band aid
For an open bleeding heart
Time,
Hurt in the moment
Hurt as it passed
Yet stood still as it ran

It was then when I had
Cancer of the Soul,
Living lifeless,
Needing to be born again
Not wanting to grow old

39 comments on “Cancer of the Soul”

  2. Oh my belies Heater. Reading this just leaves. Me incapable of finding the words to express the hug I want to give you!!!!! 💖🌻💞💝🎨🎶📏📩🔑

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  5. Hi Heather-

    I cannot read this poem. I read it twice, but I don’t think I can read it again.

    xxoo,

    Christopher (Jesse’s brother).

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    • Awwww, Christopher, Thanks for coming on and having a second go of it…the further away you are from that time, the easier perhaps, it is to reflect on it. Hugs, Heather

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  6. I don’t usually read comments – I feel like I should write my comment without being influenced by other opinions. For some reason I read these comments first. I don’t know what prompted me to do so. But now that I did read, I glean you’ve written this piece for a lovely friend. If this is correct and they are not well, I hope they will be. You’ve shown the utmost tender care and compassion in your ethereal words and profound imagery…

    AnnMarie 🙂

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    • It was a reflection of my own depression that I suffered many years ago. It was long and very heavy. At times, reflction is important so we can benchmark just how far we’ve come. And yes, in a way you were right becuase I am now, again my own friend. Thank you for your long generous comment, Ann ❤ hugs, Heather

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      • Your words were so deeply moving, I assumed they reached out from a dark place to help pull someone into the light. I’m so glad you reached and pulled to the other side.
        One of my siblings suffered a tremendous breakdown. I was so very concerned for them – I had them stay with me and my family for nearly a year. I watched what they went through and tried always supporting. Therapy, psychologists and all the rest of the medical profession can help so much – but ultimately it is the individual who must somewhere, somehow find the strength when they have nothing left to give and give enough to tilt forward and move… I’m truly glad you’re in a better place. It is clear from your writing you’re a sensitive, caring, loving and intelligent soul – and a great mom 🙂
        AnnMarie 🙂

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      • You did a dear thing and an incrediblly needed task of looking after her/him. It was half a lifetime ago for me but the experience stays forever, as does the growth. I am deeply moved by your kind words. I feel quite honored with such a grand compliment. I thank you sooo kindly, AnnMarie xo

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