I told him I loved him
His hand held in mine, as I curled up
By his side
Stroked back his hair,
His forehead I kissed
And said it was time to go to the light

His breathing, then shallow
I fought not to cry,
I felt Dads soul leave
Right after he died

There once was a time I was not so lucky
When God took my Husband away
There were no good byes, no last words
Behind with our children, I would stay

Numb to the bone,
Not a clue where to start
Love, anger and rage
Ripped apart my heart

Did I arrive too late,or did he go too fast?
There is no more future
There’s now just a past

Its’ been so many years, 14 to this day
Questions still come and go
Is it fair to complain and bitch about life?
I’ve learned I’m just human,
Oh, that I do know

But today somethings changed,
It took long enough,
And yes, I have survived

But the difference today is how grateful I am
Just for the chance to be alive

To value today like no other,
And each day that’s yet to come
For tomorrow could be,
The very last time
Our skin will be graced by the early Spring sun

There’s no time to waste,
To chase about
For a dream, when that dream is right here!
To search and to yearn for something more
And miss life that is present,
right at my door.

If we were told, this is our last day
Just think of the words
We’d choose to say…

There’d be “I love you”
Arguments would stop
We’d say “Don’t go,
You’re all that I’ve got”

But this is a day that reflects upon death
And if tomorrow should turn routine,
Take a moment to think
About what really counts,
Take the time to feel
What you might not have seen

For my Girls, With love, Mommy ❤