Motionless today
Birds fly because they choose to
-Time to spread my wings
I crave to know you your mystery
Let me in and show me why,
You hide behind a smiling face
Behind your eyes, tears cry
I wish to know why you won’t,
Open up, let demons out
Stop protecting them and hiding them,
As they toss your life about
Tainted laugher, timid joy
Faux pas, your love of life
Sullen soul that lives within,
Your worlds perfect disguise
Housing demons in your mind,
That rob you of your spark
As life remains a futile state,
Chasing rainbows in the dark
Flush them out with waterfalls,
Of tears, outside not in
Scream your pain out loud and clear,
Leave nothing left within
For you there’ll be a pot of gold
On rainbows other side,
Once you teach these demons that,
In you they can not hide
I see where I’ve been, let it remain vivid,
A reminder not to go back
To the past, where I was a visitor,
Of the darkness where lifes light lacked
There where my tears would rage like the storm,
That join Ocean and sky as one
There where the horizon is no longer seen,
From downpour of pain, lost sun
So deep we grow from lessons of sorrow
With time, a recognized gift
To have felt so intense, the agony and pain
Our soul once lost and adrift
We bounce back, yes we do,
Our compassion is found,
With new appreciation for life
Our troubles that hung
In the rip tides current,
Now Free from woes and strife
Through pain we learned joy,
Of the simplest kind
From the lows, we found a new height
Perspective of life has altered us now
Lending strength, optimistic might
So catch my tears you may not,
For they no longer fall
Lift me up you may not,
I’m already there from an intimate time,
Alone spent with my soul
I rehearse this daily in my mind,
Rehearse without whisper of sound
How I’ve come to be grateful,
Strangely thankful,
That this Life of mine,
Once had me down
-Only though the lows, can we truly meet our Soul. Love, H.
I see me now,
And reflect on a time when
Once lost ,
Needing to be found again
I see those years,
Just a walk on part
On the stage
Of my life
In a house I occupied,
But where I did not
Live
In a bed I slept,
But did not
Dream
My echoing thoughts,
A confirmation
Of loneliness,
Filled with emptiness,
Although be it without solitude
The night could have been day,
The day could have been night
Irrelevant
For I mourned both,
But wished,
Both away
Dark sadness
Medicine,
A mere band aid
For an open bleeding heart
Time,
Hurt in the moment
Hurt as it passed
Yet stood still as it ran
It was then when I had
Cancer of the Soul,
Living lifeless,
Needing to be born again
Not wanting to grow old
The pain of trauma
The aftermath,
Different in each eyes
Longing for answers,
The letting go,
For some it is ,easier, as the time goes by
The pain remains where trauma left me,
Heart crippled every day
The pain so greater for me now
Your trauma, still alive today
Oh dear child, what can I do?
How can I ease your pain?
How can I show you faith in life
To want to live again?
The answer to your question is
“No it isn’t fair”
But neither is giving in
To pain and cold despair
Outside your room,
A beautiful life
Though longer not complete
Within your soul,
My love and warmth,
Hope, never obsolete
Let me help you, take my hand
Like we’ve done before
We’ll keep on knocking day and night
Until we find your door
The one for you to open up
Where you’ll have a warm safe place,
And a drawer so very, very large
To keep your memories safe
And in this room you will find
Here the very best,
A Bed to lay your sadness on
Your trauma, laid to rest
You wanna go
You wanna stay
You want the pain
to fade away
You wanna laugh
You only cry
Why can’t this time
Just fade on by
You had enough
You had your fill
Sit back relax
Take a pill
Your body’s weak
Your head is stone
Catapulted Mind
Find your way home
Sun kiss my shoulders
Block this cold within
Next chapter of life
begs to begin
You wanna go
You wanna stay
You want your life
To find its way
I had the darkness but now live in the light
For those of you still there, those climbing out,
For reflection of those that have found the way,
Please set aside some minutes,
Depression has possibly never been better portrayed
“Once upon a time”
you were loved and treasured,
the focal point of life.
Now tucked away
upon a shelf
those times have now all gone.
You’re out of reach,
you’ve been forgotten
by caring, loving arms.
My Dear Teddy, I know how it is
when your Time is through.
You did your job,
you served well,
But there’s no more need for you.
As I look up and see you,
I feel a jab
as emotions come unfurled.
We are found
but
then left alone.
That’s life in this world
Oh Dear evil powers of the mind
Halt your craft this day
I’m tired and weary, feeling constraint
Please just this once go astray
I shall fall back in time
One of innocence so young
Skip through the fields of green.
I shall chase after butterflies
That dance in their world
Spin in circles carefree
I shall treasure that day
Doused in splendor and awe
To be that young Girl
If only once more
Oh Dear evil powers of my life today
Release me of all that is real
I’m tired and weary, feeling constraint
I beg you for time to heal